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Monday, August 20, 2012
It's an awful night. One that really hurts me. If only expectation didn't occur that day it wouldn't led to now. Why did I keep having some hope that you will look for me the next day after our anniversary month even tho you said you wanted to come on our anniversary month date yet down w a bad headache? Maybe because I really wants you to appear and not always me appearing after your work has ended.

The way we ate a ljs hurts because it seems like we ran out of words to say. I can't even look you in the eyes properly.

I'm sorry if I stressed you up in any ways. But I really wish someday you would open up to someone and not only to yourself.

Are we strong enough to move this relationship back on the right track?

3:53 AM  //  Lots of love

Monday, August 13, 2012
Spend $15 at the Prize stage today. It's the first time boyf caught it for me. Although they don't look pretty but I still find my Silly boy amazing. $15 and we've 4 small soft toys.

Walked ard and went home after thu since my boy was tired from work and he had to work the next day too.
Currently having 4 days of rest days and after that I will be working my last 5 days for RWS. Rest another 3 days and that would be my start of a new career, a full time job. 1 month of training also counted as a start right! Stressed out but what to do. We are all chasing after money, if not money would chase us.

I really wonder if I would still continue to study using my hard earned money. Pay school fees and boom, most of your money gone. While studying you don't get to earn too. Life sucks and all you have to do is to suck thumb.

2:31 AM  //  Lots of love

Thursday, August 2, 2012
Sometimes I wonder why am I not ambitious enough. No resource and information. So much for wanting to have a online shop. Interview for PTBO this coming Friday. It worries me much because I hate interview. Those one to one interaction, asking me question for my opinion and about myself. Because my 临场表现 is the worst, same goes for q&a. :( However, I still must believe in myself that I can do it.

As for boyf, he looks like he planned his life well? Continuously upgrading his life/career path. Taking up driving lesson even tho he know how to ride a bike. Wanting to be a pilot even tho he was a diver. Have the sea not enough, still want to enjoy the sky.
Maybe that's why I love him, a stable loving man. But I just feel like all the things he does is dangerous. God will look after Aloy right? :)

2:39 AM  //  Lots of love